The worth of a soul

The worth of a soul is not something you learn over night. Something you buy with money. With expensive things. It's not something every eye can see. In fact, it's what every eye cant.

To realize this is indeed a gift. To meet the one you are destined to be with and the one destined to be with you is something nothing in this world will ever surpass.

As tough as times can get, knowing you're fighting for the one makes it all okay. With what I feel and what I see, you are worth every tear, every push towards the future to be with you.

The future cannot scare me away. For it is that future that I seek. The future with you. The life with you. Through hardships in the past I have learned to be strong. I have learned to fight for what is right and what I want.

To look back at my past is not the best. I grew up with hardships left and right. Friends that came and left. Being led to believe things were real when in reality they were not.

My past with you is real. The future I seek is real. There is no other way I choose to live and chase my life to the fullest than the one I see with you.Yes, I too wish things would be easier. I've been wishing that since childhood. Wishing only goes so far. As my friend Sam once said 'only you can save yourself' And since then I have firmly believed in this.

Life's tragedies and trials will only bring you down so much. But so long as you have that fight in you. That hunger for happiness. It will never be in you to give up on something this meaningful. Something this real. And this is real. This is it for me.

I look back on the time I spent with you. On the bench, the swing, the park. Everywhere. As dreamy as I make it sound, I know love will not solve everything. But love is the most important thing. Having those moments with you was all I needed to be sure. All I needed to know that evreything is real. With that memory in mind I will never tire of chasing. Tire of pushing to be with you. Working my way up.

As much as it hurts me that at this very moment, I cannot give you the finest diamonds, the shiniest things.. I know in time I can. Money comes and money goes. But what I offer you is my love. What I've got to give is more precious than you'll ever know. My deepest inner feelings. My heart and soul.

As these tears roll out of my eyes, I know that they are not tears of hurt. Nor tears of sadness. It's tears of joy knowing I have you. Perhaps tears of fear that I may lose you. And knowing that, I choose to work hard. I am not the richest of men. I am not the most good looking man. I do not wish to sound arrogant but I do feel that I can love like noone else can. Just as you can me. Because you understand me like noone can. this is because we are meant to be.

The man you fell in love with on that bench, willing to understand, loving unconditionally and that man who said he would fight for you to the death. That man is me. I am still that man.

Your fears and faults do not bother me one bit. I have my own set of fears. I ahve my own set of faults. But they do not drive you away. When I thought I would lose you for spilling my heart out, you chose to stay.

you chose to save me.

This I know I am not romanticising. Not being dreamy about. Because what I speak of are things that have happened. What I speak of in the future are things I know is possible. I look back at the love story I had experienced and again I realize, I did not plan things I said, feelings I felt. They happened. There is no romanticising the truth.

And this truth is a truth I accept. This is the truth that sets me free. Takes away my fears. You take all that away. In your arms and your eyes, I feel the safest. I feel the most secure. I panic so badly at the thoguht of losing you. Mainly because, I cannot even imagine a life with out you.

At this moment, my muscles are freezing up. My breathing has slowed down. Tear by tear I realize again that you are the one for me. The only one.

In time I trust you will see this. And I will never tire of being here for you. I know how you feel. I get scared too. But on this I will not let you down. I wont let myself down. I will chase you for the rest of my life. And this I am sure of.

I love you B.